I keep my violence in reserve I do not file my teeth I read the handmaids tale at twelve I know what some would do to me I do not lie that I am safe I make no promises this time I lie behind this mask of man an animal version of kind 12/1/24
Author Archives: Luitha
Lightning Struck Rowan
Lightening silver Splayed into the Sky Still inside but gentle in the mountain wind Still standing Your red the only brightness Your layers home You burn in my mind In the land What have you seen? A source welling over Your invisible circle Unseen you are being Without design demand defence The centre of the world October 18
Time and Ursula
Maybe if I could speak like you Or find the leafy places in my blood like you I hear you and wonder at the earth I hear Ursula and wonder At the Sky But my words stillborn Crumble Before they reach the heart November 19
31 august 23
Fucking horrific - is the term the sucking abyss that I huddled beside my whole childhood trying to reclaim me still echoed in my own voice calling me to - what? not death, not freedom but to mad despair Relinquishment of all I ever could become on the altar of familial blind faith. That nothing could ever mean anything if I were not Obedient Puppetted, strung on the demands of demands of generations loudest voices. But I am the weak, the failing, that can lift from such a filthy hole some living limb & climb away, out of reach, a strength invisible, unthinkable to challenge toxic might and poisoned care. Of all possible heroes I am smallest And yet, I crawl still further Brighter, singing the names of them as I go / / on surviving abuse as an autist
Lost That Way
Splitface
Split face - eye gold staring smoke smell, curling Lord they watch, brother, listening stone, waiting, cool grey upon the brass upon the wood Smile, it was said a contract made denied now, if I can, to turn away lift hand a no - a space to hold within, softening breath opens in return those eyes watch - forget that telling - deafen to this need, noticed, known bring to the eye call out, truth mine